Messages From Grace

My lawn is full of Queen Anne’s lace this year! I just mow pathways through and let what grows happen, and this is the first year that, toward the end of August, it was solid Queen Anne’s Lace … I just have to celebrate it!

I’ve struggled with “cutting the grass” for years, because it seemed to desecrate the life that was present in that habitat: the wildflowers, crickets, moles, toads, healing wild plants and so much more.  Just because we are “supposed” to have short lawns in our culture. Just because everyone else does it. My yard looked messy for years, as I would delay for weeks at a time, waiting and watching, and finally – feeling the pressure of judgement, dreading the extra hard work, I would capitulate and MOW it all down! with great sorrow, blood, sweat and tears… then the cycle would start over again…

The breakthrough came about ten years ago, as I was first awakening to my spiritual path… I got the inspiration to mow a pattern in the lawn and leave a part of it wild. The symbol that was awakening in me I called “the Hand of God”;  it was showing up in my clay work, drawn in bowls, or as slab handprints, arranged and interpreted.

In God’s Hand

One, showing a path to a cave by a brook, with a figure (me) seated in meditation, symbolized my spiritual journey, and it has been largely a journey of surrendering judgment and allowing Flow.  From that period on I have felt fully supported by Source/Mother/Father God…  The huge handprint in the lawn that year was beautiful, until the grass got so tall that a heavy rain made it look like a hairy paw, which spooked me, and I mowed it all down!

The next year, I tried another symbol, the cross inside a circle, a personal symbol of great resonance.  It was showing up in my art work, especially in a long series of mandala paintings. The very center was often a little circle, crossed top to bottom and side to side. I didn’t know why I put it there, it just seemed “meaningful” and right. I began to explore the history of the symbol, and learned that it was, among many things, an ancient Mu symbol, a Medicine Wheel, the Quartering of the Universe, the Astrological symbol for Earth, and the Gnostic cross.  The Gnostic belief in the divinity within us was just beginning to resonate within me.

Mandala Garden

I was just beginning my apprenticeship with Jeshua in 2005, and I asked him about the symbol that was occuring in my paintings and he told me that Yes, I had in fact been a Gnostic priest in one life! The pattern in the lawn became a place to greet the sun, to pray, to sing, to walk and dance the pattern of reverence for all of life.

Anyway, my lawn has carried this symbol with all its levels of meaning for all these years since. As the grandbabies got bigger, they have used it as a place to play, so I began to close off some of the paths to make it more of a maze to challenge them and add the element of mystery. The lawn has become a place of enchantment!

Seeing the brilliant delicate beauty of the masses of Queen Anne’s Lace was a surprise to me, and it felt like a bold statement of gratitude from the devic realm for allowing, blessing and celebrating my wild and beautiful lawn!

Sunset On the Island Downeast

It has been a month since I had enough peace and quiet in my everyday life to sit and channel.  Mostly I’ve been looking within for brief re-centering,  bursts of strength, energetic hugs, or guidance for a loved one… it has been a very busy time in my ministry, with an unusual number of funerals to do. Some may shie from such work, but truly I love it.  It is an honor to be with a family who are grieving, because of the depth of love present. Helping them to celebrate their love for the one who “transitioned” with a service of memories, stories, music, poetry and prayers is a passion for me. I am deeply glad that I can stand, steady in my faith in the goodness and wisdom of the Universe, and share that faith with those who fear the loss called death. (Someday I’ll write a book…)

After so many funerals in a row, I finally got really tired. Through perfect timing, my annual family vacation on a Maine island was the retreat my human spirit needed. Add a good dose of family love and tons of sleep, and after three days here, I feel renewed, or as we say, more like a “hummin’ being.”

So. I went to sit in meditation, finally, with the intention of adding to the blog, and was surprised and delighted that the one who came to talk with me was my old friend the unicorn I call Ukiel. After a bit of chat, I asked for a message and s/he said: Yes, let’s. Then I got a sensation of being physically rubbed silky furry face to my face, then sensed a tail swishing about (not mine!) The following message, with its playfulness and child-like style, was a great antidote to taking my self too seriously(!)

me and Ukiel

S/he began to talk:

I am most wondrous – as are You!  My being roams the skies, the void, the dimensions with ease — as does yours, when free of the physical attachment.  Sometimes you ride on my head, very small, looking out between my ears, holding onto my horn, and sometimes you are on my back.  Sometimes I canter at your side, the size of a dog… it varies according to how we want to play.  I create rainbows with my thoughts and movement – streaks of prismatic color.

(Why doesn’t this feel like the normal channeling?)  It’s fine. It’s different. I do not need you to post it on the blog, do you? I am not trying to be famous — that would be you… (yeah…it’s a compensation for my lack of self-confidence, this desire for recognition and audience…)

“Am I enough?”  Of course!!!  I wear the exclamation point on my forehead!  I am brightly, irridescently, shimmeringly happy with who I am… and remember, as you are learning with your teachers and Mom & Dad [Mother/Father God] – we are not separate – I am another aspect of you – one that radiates freedom, beauty, energetic self-confidence… I do not own this quality, I freely share it with you. It is you who makes the distinction such as: Ukiel IS and I am Not this or that… We share this aspect of creation: we create together!  We are, and are again, and here again – we are also!  Creating and re-creating our expression of freedom, beauty – and – ah yes, service… For my role in the wheel of life is as healer, as life restorer.  Where darkness has overcome any energies, or parts of any energy – I bring my wholeness, my radiance.  And with my “wearable wand” – I touch and bring light/life back — and I do this with the utmost of love – gently, graciously, tenderly ~ and then romp off exuberantly into the next adventure.

You are my companion-being – we are a team – you bring your heart, your sight, your intellect and infuse the healing with human in-sight, the ability to SEE compassionately the experience of another – and therefore we perform as one – love as one – energize & strengthen & heal as one, en-whole, holistically merging intention. Each adventure deepens our pleasure in one another, one & another… “Another one” we say and hug and prance.  “One more”, “Once more” – en-wholing, restoring, rejoicing we go, blessed and blossoming – “blessem-ing” — All-ways, forever, and Now.  Go with Love ~ we are connected.
X   [Ukiel’s mark]